This made me cry because sometimes this is everything I have ever felt, and I don’t think people understand that I can’t help it. That I don’t know how to control this. That sometimes I’m not okay, and I don’t know how to convey that, and I don’t think people realize that although I’m super fucking happy right now and my life is great, this is something I just can’t really control. It’s seriously like an off again and on again abusive relationship that is so so so fucking hard to break. And fuck, this is just so real.